The Biggest Manipulation------ "Mind".

the biggest manipulation of god is this mind which he has given different to each individual. we can see the world in the way we want. practical people see the world as very practical. emotional or idealistic people see it as very ideal. actually we want to perceive the world as being coherent to our own selves. and when we find discrepancy, we feel anxiety b'coz we feel we r not fit for the world that actually exists.
we all want to feel competent & when we feel that in certain spheres of life we r not competent enough than we r very afraid. we all feel some sort of incompleteness in ourselves & we want to fill that space with love of someone but very rarely we r able to do so..........specially when it comes to duration. may be this incompleteness is our estrangement from the god. but again we don't know how to overcome our need to love some human & to be equally loved by him. yes we search god in our relationships..........as the line of my composition goes......."sapno mein bahut socha tha, apno mein tujhko (god) dhoondha tha......"
but what to do!!! this is the highest form of creation we know. we even see god in a human form. we have never experienced anything better than human, in the over all sense.......
so how can we stop loving people...........i know that attachment or "moh" is also a part of this material existence. for me....... love is also a sort of bhakti, which is done without knowing whether the being concerned actually deserves it or not. so the question is------ does this bhakti has some value in the eyes of god..........or not.....???

Closeness To God Reduces Fear!!!

i was living under the fear of practicalities & hard realities of life. the uncertainty of life was producing fear in me. i was feeling weak & helpless in front of the realities of life. i was feeling incompetent in front of life. i was thinking that i m not capable enough to face the realities & hardships of life. i was fearing that what i have today will be taken away from me anytime. i was fearing i will not be able to keep the thing i love, with me in future..........as the practical view of life was directing me to think this way. but then one thought came in my mind & it, to some extent, reduced my fear & anxiety.
i thought that why m i so afraid? i m a good person who tries to follow the path shown by god. but then why i m so afraid of the future? And then i understood that i have lost that absolute trust in god. i have lost trust in the "order in life". i have started feeling that this world is inorderly. but this is not true.........because even the most practical & realistic peoples in the world also have belief in the existence of the supreme power. most of the people in the world, worship one god or the other. all of them believe that there is some third power that controls over the working of this world. then who m i to believe that there is no order in this world...........& then i got this realization that i have some how distanced myself from god. my belief in the existence of god has somehow reduced. may be because i have started seeing life very closely & with a realistic perspective. but no realist can deny the most universal concept...........that is GOD...... Even if i see the world with a realist's perspective, it must not stop me from believing in the ultimate power & will of the god. And if this is true........then i don't understand how can god make me undergo the same pain again & that too when i have asked that thing from him & have asked him to take care of me. may be the fault is mine. i have sent him confused signals but now i have stopped doing it. now i have made my signals very clear..........& have prayed from god. and i will believe that god has not made that thing for me only when god will completely prove me that.......... but till then i will continue to feel what i m feeling & will continue praying from god.the solution of fear is -------"come close to god & feel his presence". his closeness removes every fear & every pain.

it feels bad to see hatered!!!

sometimes we r so busy in hating others that often forget loving ourselves. hatred is something which completely displaces the love & humanity inside all of us. i m sometimes amazed to see how a person at one point of time loves someone so deeply & on the other, hates him whole heartedly. sometimes we r so much involved in hating others that we forget that we have also been in that situation & have hated other for behaving in the way we r behaving. than i think..........may be i m not able to understand their situation, may the two situations r completely different. also i feel that we think as a cognitive miser when we think from others side. so in the end i just say to myself----"Dear, this is a world of perceptions........so don't waste your energy in understanding bad things. the basic principle of this world is that u get what u seek. so its better to seek good things............